Clockwork Eternal

I sit in the chair,

My head down, hands still,

My eyes unseeing, waiting, watching,

Feeling neglected by your touch,

As you play with others and in these moments

As the dust settles

I feel…trapped and alone

My arms strung too loosely to move

My legs unwound and lax,

Only the faint beat of my heart

Show signs that I am aware,

Waiting to come alive in your hands

Dully I watch you as if in a dream

Longing for the moment

As you caress the toy in your hands

That you would love me

In the same fashion

Then your eyes become distant

As if waking from a dream

And you look around

Searching for something lost to you

Then your eyes settle

On me.

Dully I watch as you enter

A cloth and a brush

Oil and parts,

You lovingly caress me

As if finding a prize possession thought

In your mind to be lost

Gently you fix me,

My arms and legs no longer useless

My skin shining with new paint

My hair gently curling down my back

And from a chest you pull

Shiny and new

a clockwork heart

It’s gears and cogs quietly ticking

Its springs moving in simple harmony

To your own beat.

As you place this into my chest

I realize that you had never

Forgotten me,

You were fixing my heart

And making it your own,

Upon winding the springs

To move my emotion

I come alive in your hands,

You smile at me a look of satisfaction

Gently caressing my face

Showing me that you would treat

None the way you treat me,

You will always be there, fixing me

Even when I don’t see the process,

I will never wait forever,

For my clockwork heart

Beats in time with yours

And our beat

Is eternal…